Lantern Waste in the West and the Silver Lake to the East

LOL, DOCTOR MCSEXY.

2009-11-06T07:26:27Z

I'm pretty sure you're reaction to this episode was the same as mine. First, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Then,
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

Was I close? XD

No, but seriously. HAHAHA, 'SERIOUSLY', GET IT?! Ahem. So, the Trickster was Gabriel THE WHOLE TIME?! That certainly explains Mystery Spot!

I really like the whole thing about how Sam and Dean are literally the human counterparts of Lucifer and Michael, because, I don't know, I really like the symmetry of that. I have this weird thing with symmetry; it's the same reason I got all excited when they named last season's finale 'Lucifer Rising' - because it was in line with the premiere, 'Lazarus Rising'.

But that's beside the point.

Okay so wait, the Impala runs on Holy Oil?! FTWWWW. Also, um, Impala!Sam was the cutest thing ever, amirite? I can't even imagine the kind of fic that is going to spawn. I'd definitely read some good clean crack about how Dean and Sam the Car drive across the country... hunting things... running them over, things like that. For the lulz.

I love that Dean was just like, Fuck you. Yeah! Damn straight! You show those angels! (I almost want Castiel to find God and be all, "SEEEE, I TOLD YOU SO!" a la Lucy in The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe and then get rewarded for it and stick his tongue out at his brothers. Idek. He just seems like such an outcast and, d'awww, Castiel. ♥

That's really all I have to say, because I'm tired and I can't think straight. Is there some huge issue with this ep that I missed? Because in my book, the whole thing goes down as Pure Gold.

In related news: I know that I was complaining about the potential suckage of Chicago Con just yesterday, but that didn't stop me from jumping up and down in my kitchen and squeeing like a fangirl when I got my ticket in the mail today. I may have twirled a bit, who knows? (My dog must think I'm a lunatic.)

Enzo!

2009-11-03T19:48:12Z

*headdesk*

Sooo, I stayed up until 5 a.m. again and got my stupid self out of bed a whole HOUR earlier that I needed to. Without even realizing. My mom was just like, "What time do you need to be up??!! It's 8:30!!" and I automatically decided by the tone of her voice that I was gonna be late so I got up and got dressed and got in my car and... class isn't until 10. AUGHHH.

So here I am, bugging you with another iPod-related poll. This one's about punctuation, yay!

The | means that's where the line break would be:

View Poll: Mssr. Obsessed With Small Dots

As you can see, I decided on the SPN quote. I think it fits to have a quote from the show on my iPod because I really do think that it has affected my music style. By which I mean, I was more exposed to classic rock when I started watching the show and eventually came to the conclusion that: 'THIS. THIS IS MY MUSIC.' Ergo, the SPN quote, and one that actually references the music in the show. That, and it's from the Pilot, and I love that scene, and it's the first time Dean calls Sam Sammy and and and.

I threw in that last one because - well, here's the whole thing:

SAM: I swear man, you've gotta update your cassette tape collection.
DEAN: Why?
SAM: Well for one, they're cassette tapes. And two, Black Sabbath? Motorhead? Metallica? It's the greatest hits of mullet rock.
Dean: *snatches a tape from Sam and pops it in* Well, house rules, Sammy: driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cakehole.
SAM: You know, 'Sammy' is a chubby twelve year old. It's Sam, okay?
Dean: *AC/DC's "Back in Black" starts blasting from the Impala* Sorry, can't hear you. The music's too loud.

So I mean, HOW MUCH LOVE is that scene? The only problem I have with putting "House rules, Sammy" on there is that the name Sammy would be engraved onto an iPod named Enzo... and for some reason that just bothers me.

I also thought about putting: 'Sorry, can't hear you. | Music's too loud', but that just sounds like a generically lame cliche to put on an iPod without the context.

THIS IS SO HARD. Me and decision-making don't get along.

lay your weary head to rest

2009-10-31T12:25:46Z

Despite the fact that I have a 3-5 page paper due by midnight that I still don't have a thesis for, on Halloween morning, when I have literally no free time to start said paper -

I knew it was going to be a good day anyway when my radio-alarm started blaring "Carry On, Wayward Son." ♥

I know it was very loud, very early on Saturday morning and it was probably waking up my family, but I just didn't have the heart to shut it off until the song was over.

This needs a 'WTF' icon. Or maybe: o.O

2009-10-23T19:53:42Z

I had a dream last night that a shirtless Sam Winchester managed to save someone's life in a very heroic fashion, and for some reason Dean said, erm, appreciatively, "Wow, this is exactly what it feels like when I think about angels being with humans."

... I don't ship either Cas/Dean or Wincest, so I have no idea where that came from.

In related news, I woke up at 2:30 this afternoon! Fall break is meant for catching up on homework, not sleeping! Oh well.

twicetheheart31 @ 2009-10-16T00:35:00

2009-10-16T06:04:30Z

UMMMMMM.

OKAY I LOVE THAT KID.

LIKE, A LOT.

I really hope I won't be eating my words! He's like Mordred - both creepy and adorable, except Jesse isn't going to kill anyone! Err, yet. That we know of.

ANYWAY. I loved this episode! Equal parts funny, scary, and intense, and it moved the plot forward! I liked how the beginning felt like a good old hunt, urban legends coming to life and all, but that it ended up being something far more serious.

The scene in the motel with Castiel and Sam - WOAH. Woah. Cas still has a lot to learn about humans. Like the fact that they learn from their mistakes.

I liked that Dean had no objections to telling the kid the truth and letting him make the choice. Remember 'Metamorphosis'? His reaction was completely different. I mean, I know it's a different situation and all, but both episodes dealt with someone like Sam, who had the potential to resist going dark side. Last season, Dean wasn't quite as sensitive to Sam's situation. This time around? He had even more of a reason to just kill Jesse, given that his own Sammy couldn't overcome his 'destiny'. I just think it's another tiny little sign that the brothers can start to see through each others' eyes.

I was really creeped out at the whole demon pregnancy thing. I'm pretty sure I would have completely lost my mind and ended up drooling in an institute for the rest of my life after that, so props to Julia! (What happened to her, anyway? Did they just leave her there? Was she dead...?)

I... have a hard time thinking of Jesse as "the antichrist", but. Another spin on the bible, and I'm wondering how it will all fit in at the end. Jesse's evil destiny is to kill the host of angels, right? Including Michael? What about Lucifer? I hope he's not going to come out of nowhere and kill Lucifer, that's all. (I'm still holding on to hope that one of the boys will do it with the Colt, but chances are slim, I know.)

I have more speculation, but it depends on whether the kid would kill Lucifer if he iced the angels, so I'm not going to say anything just yet.

They brought up John again a couple of times, so I'm really starting to think that he's going to play a part somehow further down the line. That, or they're starting to tie things up: Dean already admitted that he sometimes wishes Sam could have stayed innocent; now he's finally realizing that he deserved innocence, too.

I really loved the scene where Jesse leaves to say goodbye to his parents, and then flops down on his bed and says goodbye to his old life, too. It was just really poignant. A nice touch that I don't think we've had enough of since the Gamble & Tucker duo have stopped writing.

WHY do we have to have a hiatus next week. :(

Oh well. Only one month until Chicago... oh man, so excited.

Good ol' Q. You have served me well.

2009-10-15T06:43:00Z

HEY GUYS SRS BSNS TIEM.

So I'm getting a new iPod. Quatre had been dying a slow death for the past couple of years, ever since I used it while cleaning stalls one day when it was -14 degrees outside (with the windchill), like an idiot, and the screen cracked. Thus:

Except it's a giant black spot of dead pixels, not blue. Which is starting to get on my nerves a little, since Q is just a glorified shuffle at this point, except harder to... shuffle. Because I can't see where I'm navigating to. Then yesterday he fell in the street while I was running with my dog and now he makes funny little strained sound whenever I use the wheel.

After much deliberation (okay not that much), I decided I want to get one of those new Gen 5 Nanos.

BUT. I HAVE PROBLEMS. DECISION MAKING PROBLEMS. THEY ARE LIFE-CHANGING. I NEED YOUR INPUT. WHY does it have to come in like eight million different colors, doesn't Apple know that I have a hard time making decisions?!

Umm, even harder? The engraving. I was thinking about, "Driver picks the music, shotgun shuts his cakehole", but I probably won't be listening to it in the car. Plus it's a little rude. (I love you, Deano.)

Any music-related quotes that you guys can come up with from fandom? Or just any cool quotes you can think of?

Poll time!

View Poll: I almost miss the days when my choices were "black" or "white".

Then there's the issue of naming it. Should I name it Quatre after the old one? I probably won't, since I'll most likely delegate the old one to becoming my barn iPod, so I can ride with it and not worry too much about squashing it if I fall. The name might come after the color... or the quote... or both.

I know, I'm strange. BUT THIS IS SERIOUS!

twicetheheart31 @ 2009-10-10T22:38:00

2009-10-11T04:10:04Z

After spending more than 7 hours in barista purgatory all morning/afternoon, boy was I glad to come home to new Merlin!

I have some thoughts... but beware: I'm writing a paper on Tennyson's The Idylls of the King (which is his retelling of Malory's Le Morte d'Arthur), so the original legend is on my mind.

I just want to point out that in most legends - and we all know that there are no hard and fast facts to this, but the Guinevere/Arthur/Lancelot triangle is extremely common - Arthur didn't know about Guinevere's feelings for Lancelot until very near the end.

This is relevant to the episode because the Gwen/Arthur thing is still very very new for both of them, and already Arthur knows that she has feelings for Lance. Obviously they're not following the legend, but it's still plausible that Arthur will marry Gwen when he is king, and eventually Lancelot will show up in Camelot again. In the legend, the betrayal cuts Arthur so deep because he had no idea. So I mean, just the fact that Arthur knows already is going to change things!

I like the laughing in the face of destiny thing especially because it's reminding me of Supernatural right now. :) The boys know what their destiny is, and they say screw that, we're doing this OUR way, not THEIRS. It's pretty much exactly what the Merlin writers are doing, haha.

Aaaand, this is a bit early since it's still the 10th in the states, but it's the 11th in the UK so happy birthday, Bradley James!

twicetheheart31 @ 2009-10-09T00:03:00

2009-10-09T06:40:37Z

ETA: I LOVE YOU, F-LIST. After I wrote this I went and read a bunch of reviews from other people, and a lot of them had bad things to say about this episode. Then I check my friends page and you've all got such happy positive things to say, THANK YOU. ♥

SEE? THIS IS WHY I LOVE BEING SPOILER FREE! Because when Paul McGillion shows up in the first scene I am SURPRISED AND DELIGHTED. (And then I think, Oh no, is he going to die?! Because such is the nature of the show.) Ummm, I fangirled a lot. BECKETT!!!! ♥

Also, am I the only one who breathed a sigh of relief when it was obvious that we weren't going to be dealing heavily with the mytharc? That we're back to good ol' hunting? Don't get me wrong, I love the heavy stuff, but I need a break once in a while.

Then of course there had to be a DISGUSTING GORE SCENE and no, I take it back, maybe I don't want the teaser scenes again. And of course they had to show from, like, SEVENTEEN DIFFERENT ANGLES and it was GROSS. And possibly unrealistic.

Who else is really happy that they're (kind of) looking for the colt? I would be totally happy with a kill-Lucifer-with-the-Colt scenario (unless of course Sam was his vessel). I JUST LOVE THE COLT, OKAY. It's my second-favorite gun! (Next to Sam's 12-gauge double barrel pistol grip sawed off shotgun, of course.) The Colt is so old-school canon, now they're toting around Ruby's boring knife. SNORE. The Colt is BADASS.

WAIT WHEN DID DEAN GET A LAPTOP? He's... he's probably had it for a while now, hasn't he, and I haven't noticed. Hm.

SAM/RESEARCH OTP: "...That's a lot of research." "Well, I guess I just made your afternoon."

Since it seems to be the hot issue this episode: Paris Hilton. I want to take this moment to laugh at all the people who freaked out when this was announced and claimed they were going to quit the show for "selling out". This was not a sell-out. It was downright hilarious, if I do say so myself, and it fit in PERFECTLY with the episode. Come on, how is Paris Hilton beating the shit out of Sam and Dean Winchester not the FUNNIEST SHIT EVER?!

And anyway, it was all worth it for Dean's "I've never even seen House of Wax". OKAY I LAUGHED REALLY HARD, SHUT UP. That was actually my first thought when they were in the wax museum for the first time: JARED + WAX FIGURES SHOULD NOT MIX. Okay I know House of Wax was a terrible movie but it still freaked me out, not gonna lie.

Now. Time to discuss the important bits.

I am completely satisfied with Sam's explanation for following Ruby. I mean, obviously there was more to it than what he told Dean, but it's always been a little obvious that Sam is sick of being the "little brother" and not being allowed to make his own decisions. Which, I mean, you can't really blame Dean. (And I don't think Sam is mad at Dean for being a little overbearing, it just was, and it got to him. I can relate.) For Dean there was of course always the issue of John putting too much pressure on him to protect the kid. Plus, it's a common thing for siblings to feel like that, which is probably why I'm so satisfied with the explanation. It's real.

I'm so, so glad that Dean brought up his involvement in the apocalypse at the end. I have to admit, I was a little mad at him for what he said to Bobby on the phone - no, madder that he just shrugged it off and tried to tell Sam he didn't say anything. BUT THEN Sam called him out on it, and I was like YES SAM I LOVE YOU.

All in all, I agree wholeheartedly with everything Sam said. They can't go back to the way things were, because it obviously didn't work. Now, most of the reason it didn't work goes waaaay back to - well, their whole lives, really. And it's not like their relationship pre-S4 was fake, they just had a lot of issues that all seemed to come out at once.

And - something I never though of before - when Dean was in hell, Sam probably got used to it. I always imagined him like he was in 'Mystery Spot', and I suppose he was, to an extent. But he also didn't have Dean telling him what to do and where to go, so he got used to being his own person (again) and wanted more of it.

IN SHORT: THIS MAKES SENSE, SHOW. I haven't read anyone else's reviews, though, so if there's something I'm missing from this equation, feel free to let me know.

WHO ELSE WAS WAITING FOR THE MUSIC CUE AT THE END, RAISE YOUR HANDS!

This is a random question, but without telling me any other information about next week's episode, can anyone tell me who wrote and who directed it? I don't trust IMDB to keep spoilers a secret.

Wtf, school.

2009-10-08T06:17:22Z

Have you guys ever had a class where a lot of important information is sent via email? I have this class tomorrow, right, Adv. Academic Writing, and my professor has never said anything about regularly checking email. I just checked my school mail on a whim - note that it's after 1 am - and there's a message from her saying that we're supposed to read these sample papers that she attached and comment on them for tomorrow.

She never mentioned it in class, never told us to check our email, and it has nothing to do with the assignment she did tell us about in class. So... what gives? Am I expected to just doo extra homework that she randomly decides to send via email, with no warning?

Doesn't help that she keeps moving around the due date for our paper - so it MIGHT be due by Thursday midnight like I thought, but it might also have been due today. I have no idea.

WHY, school, WHY. I cannot keep all this straight!

'Merlin, what have we said about you trying to be funny?' 'I shouldn't.'

2009-10-04T05:49:31Z

DAMMIT DAMMIT DAMMIT, HE WAS GOING TO TELL HER WHYYYY DIDN'T HE TELL HER?!

I'm so torn between wanting SOMEONE to know about Merlin's magic and wanting it to be all secret and suspenseful and angsty. Although I could use less of the angst.

I'm glad Morgana knows about herself, though. And MERLIN, Merlin needed to hear about how magic can be a force for good just as much as she did. He's got Gaius, of course, it's a different thing to hear from someone who embraces his own magic.

MORDRED. AUGH, I go from "Awww, I love that kid!" to "KILL HIM KILL HIM LET HIM DIE" in an instant, and I feel bad for thinking both thoughts, and augh. I can't wait to see even more of him.

Arthur thinks there's something going on between Merlin and Morgana! I thought that was cute. And he said something about how she can't be his friend and I was like, OH BUT YOU AND GWEN, THAT'S SOMEHOW DIFFERENT, ISN'T IT. Except that it's just the same. I KNOW THAT DIDN'T MAKE SENSE, SHUT UP.

Did anybody else get the feeling that Arthur was just a hair's breadth away from telling Uther No, I won't hunt down the druids? I mean, he did, and he didn't put up a fight, but I think he at least thought about it first.

GAIUS ♥ The end, I was all HUG TIEMS NAO? YAY! because it was so obvious that Gaius was going to be more relieved than angry, and awwww.

LET'S TAKE THAT LAST ARTHUR/MERLIN SCENE OUT OF CONTEXT AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS, HMMM?:

Arthur: This has to stop. The king would have your head if he found out. There's no denying it.
Merlin: Denying what?
Arthur: *knowing look*

... And then Arthur keeps his hand on Merlin's shoulder for an awfully, awfully long time. *g*

SORRY.

Maaaaan, I just want a happy world where they all know about Merlin's magic and Morgana's magic and everything is happy and sunny ALL THE TIME. No angst or Merlin's loneliness. I don't want to hear about Merlin's loneliness. It makes me very sad.

OT4, ANYONE? Lance can join too.

NEXT WEEK HOLY SHI--

I don't even know.

Erm, sorry about that. It's late.

"You're not fooling me."

2009-10-04T04:32:52Z

You know, I'm kind of surprised that it took so long for the show to spell it out: what Lucifer is, what the angels are, and the demons by extension. Like Dean says, "You're the same thing, only bigger." They're just another hunt, another job, another supernatural son-of-a that needs to be destroyed. They just play on a bigger field.

I just think it's interesting because it would have changed a lot of the fandom's reaction to angels last season. I always thought it was obvious: if demons existed, then it only makes sense that angels do too. And following that logic, if demons are just another hunt, like a vampire or a vengeful ghost or an urban legend, then what separates the angels? God? I used to think that fans were being hypocritical for not liking the idea of God in the show when they were obviously fine with the fact that Lucifer and Hell were part of it. Now it's obvious that God is, in fact, something else, something that doensn't even matter right now. To quote Zachariah, "God has left the building".

Lucifer, then, is just what Dean says he is. He's just another angel, another demon, another supernatural baddie. I wonder if fandom would have had the same reaction to angels and the current mytharc if someone had asked upfront what separated the angels from the demons. Because in terms of the supernatural, the answer is nothing.

I doubt this makes any difference other than the fact that Dean is now more determined than ever to finish the hunt and get rid of Lucifer, but I was just really happy that Dean realized it at all. It means that I'm not the only one who considered Lucifer as just the next Big Bad, and not religious commentary or somesuch. Werewolves only exist in legend, right? But Sam and Dean have come face-to-face with them, it's the basis of the show. If you take religious belief out of the equation, then Lucifer is the same thing: legend, and now he's the Monster of the Week. Just, again, on a larger scale.

Sorry if that was redundant.

You know what? We kinda liked it.

2009-10-03T04:24:16Z

So um.

I think the fact that I'm so far unable to make a reaction post to last night's Supernatural speaks for itself.

I'll watch it again tomorrow and then we'll see if I can manage to get my thoughts in order.

twicetheheart31 @ 2009-10-01T01:52:00

2009-10-01T06:54:58Z

... I have been staying up to write a draft of a paper that I have to write for tomorrow's class, and I just looked at the syllabus: IT'S NOT DUE TILL TUESDAY.

One the one hand, I can stop worrying about finishing it now, and I've already gotten a good start so I won't be busting my ass on Monday night to try and write an entire paper at once like I usually do, so that's good.

On the other hand, IT'S TWO IN THE MORNING AND I COULD HAVE BEEN SLEEPING. And I didn't get to see my pony today because I thought I would need time to write this. I MISSED BOTH PONY AND SLEEP FOR NOTHING.

FAIL.

(But today is SUPERDAY and it's going to be AMAZING so I am in a good mood despite all the GRRR.)

Lol, Sam's "Seriously?!" in my moodtheme was exactly my reaction after reading the syllabus.

twicetheheart31 @ 2009-09-27T00:12:00

2009-09-27T05:28:34Z

THIS. EPISODE. IT WAS LIKE CHRISTMAS MORNING.

I mean, yeah, Arthur/Merlin = OTP and all that, but ARTHUR/GWEN ALALDSFJKAL;JFKDASL! The OT4-ness of this show, it pleases me. :D

JUST. GUINEVERE. I love her so ridiculously much. And the end was so pretty and hopeful but then I thought of Lace and remembered that THIS ENDS IN TRAGEDY. And Merlin, he is always always alwaaaaays going to be the one working his ass off behind the scenes for Arthur's sake, and whether he's unappreciated or given credit for saving Arthur's life in post-Uther Camelot, he's still going to be unimportant in the face of Gwen's sudden but inevitable betrayal.

WHYYY is the happiest show on the planet filled with so much EVENTUAL TRAGEDY? D:

But ummm, UNTIL THEN, yay for happy and jousting and gorgeous gorgeous drop-dead gorgeous horses and has anybody else noticed that Merlin/Colin is like 500 times more adorable this season? Anyone? Is it just me?

MERLIN'S RANT, that was genius. And Arthur wearing his clothes! And all the grins at the table behind Uther's back! And Merlin being all cute with Arthur's horse at the trough! And Bradley's stupid hilarious adorable face in every scene ever!

Only thing that was missing from this was Morgana, but it looks like next week will be Morgana-centric, so I am placated.

IN SHORT: That's right, Gwen, DEMAND RESPECT and teach Arthur humility I LOVE HER SO MUCH. ♥

"...What he said."

2009-09-25T07:06:05Z

I got a little thinky and dramatic in here, sorry!

The great thing about this title is that they're not free to be who they are: they're meant to host angels. Then again, I could be looking too much into things. :)

- OKAY, UM. Was anybody else having an EMOTIONAL OVERLOAD during the first few minutes? Yeah, Sammy, plz to be not wearing a shirt to bed more often. JESS IS SO PRETTY, UGH. It was pretty obvious that she was either a) in Sam's head or b) Lucifer, but still. I love that after all Sam's been trough since her death, she's still not some throwaway tragedy that happened way back when. (She's another thread that ties back through S1, which is one of the things I've been loving about this show since 'In The Beginning' last season. Everything is important.)

- Sam as Lucifer's vessel: nobody was surprised, Krikpe. Sorry.

So: Sam = Lucifer's vessel, Dean = Michael's vessel; Micheal is supposed to kill Lucifer... I keep telling myself it's only episode three, of course there will be new developments and things aren't going to play out the way it seems. I'm cool with the possibility of Sam and Dean going out in a blaze of glory at the end of the season (WHILE I SOB UNCONTROLLABLY), but I want them to do it TOGETHER, not while trying to destroy each other. I hope they both give a big fuck you to the damn angels and go down swinging. SIDE BY SIDE.

Also, Lucifer: I still don't believe you. No lies? No tricks? You're fucking Satan.

OH, OH: IF GOD IS DEAD, THEREFORE ACCORDING TO RAPHAEL IT WAS LUCIFER WHO BROUGHT CASTIEL BACK, WHO PUT SAM AND DEAN ON THAT PLANE? Lucifer wouldn't have done it, he needed Sam in the church! HAH. SUCK IT, RAPHAEL.

- On a related note: it's interesting how God's disappearance mirrors John's disappearance.

- BACK TO SAM: I LOVE YOU, SAM. REALLY. Who else thought he was ridiculously pretty tonight, raise your hands. And badass! He has badass darts skills because he had to WIN so that he could EAT back in the day, Lindsey, so suck it.

Lindsey... was a little pushy, but I didn't mind her so much.

BUT SAM, OMGGG. You can't hide, Sammy. It's nice to pretend that he can just lay low and try not to make things worse than they already are, but how long did he think that could go on? You can't just start the apocalypse and then try to pretend like it never happened. I don't think that's what Sam was trying to do, per se, but he didn't really have a game plan when he left Dean.

- Dean. Oh, Deano. It's not Sam's absence that makes him happy, he admitted that he's relieved to not have to worry about it anymore, not have to take care of this little brother, not have to even miss him, really, because it's a good healthy separation. And Cas, you're hilarious, man, but you're no Sam.

- BACK TO SAM AGAIN. HE DON'T NEED NO DEMON BLOOD, HE WILL FUCK YOUR SHIT UP CLEAN, SON. :D That's my boy! I hope he listens to Lindsey and not Lucifer: people CAN change! He can fight this thing, he just proved it. That streak of pure goodness in him, it's going to be humanity's salvation, let me tell you. Azazel didn't think about that: how could you expect a demon to believe that goodness exists, anyway? Again, I'm back to thinking about season 1: the Sammy who wanted to save everybody, who wouldn't even let humans be collateral damage. It's the same Sam who wanted to use his powers to save possessed people, the same Sam whose expression clearly proved how sorry he was to hear that Steve had died.

Sorry to be such a Sam activist lately, but I honestly don't know how people can't notice the way he takes everything to heart, empathizes, blames himself, and genuinely feels remorse. He's not the bad guy. (And neither is Dean, or Ruby, or John, or anybody except Lucifer. Yellow-Eyes. The DEMONS.

...Am I the only one who thinks this way?)

- Ummm I just have to say that Castiel's reaction to possibly getting laid was the best thing ever. HE WAS SO TERRIFIED. I can't wait for gifs/caps. CAN'T WAIT.

(I always think of Jimmy in there, and his reaction to it all. I suppose he's not exactly awake, but still.)

- Was anybody else thinking about season 1 during this episode? Am I just weird? Was it because Jess was there? I was just thinking about how different things are, and wondering... oh, I don't know. Just, last season I still thought they could go back to that life, but now I'm not so sure. Going out together in the end is looking more and more like an ending I want, which is weird for me, because for a long time I wanted the show to just end with them getting in the car and driving off the the sound of some classic rock song. Although, a Sam'n'Dean alive-and-well scenario I can see in the aftermath of the apocalypse, assuming they destroy Lucifer and don't come out any worse for wear, would be as possible 'cleaning up' thing - getting rid of all the demons and wayward angels left behind: "We've got work to do."

WHY AM I THINKING ABOUT THE END, WE HAVE 19 EPISODES LEFT! ~~Hopefully.~~

- I wanted to talk about the scene with Dean and Cas in the motel room at the beginning: I was all sad when Castiel did a once-over of the room, looking for Sam. :((( I mean, everybody knows, wherever Dean is there's Sam, and vice versa. But that's not actually what I wanted to point out, this is:

Dean: "So, have you found God yet? More importantly, can I have my damn necklace back?"

Pfft, God. Who cares? He wants his necklace back! (And he says he doesn't miss Sam. Just keep telling yourself that, Dean.

- I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK, AFDJKAF;LAJSA!!!

I'm SPOILER-FREE, and I want to stay that way! Thanks!

I just finished bullshitting a paper for tomorrow and I still have a ton of reading to do for a meeting with my professor after class, and it's 2 a.m. Staying up to watch SPN? WORTH IT.

:D

2009-09-23T20:51:27Z

Okay, I gave in. You all know that I'm generally a spoiler-phobe, but episode four is so close anyway that I GAVE IN and read the 5.04 description, saw the pictures, and all I have to say is -

SUPERNATURAL IS DOING A

ZOMBIE

APOCALYPSE?!

DO. WANT.

SO MUCH WANT.

If the description line "Dean meets up with Future Dean" means that were will be two actual Dean Winchesters in the same place at the same time, my life will be complete. (DALDOM doesn't count; demon!Dean was only in his head.)

And if the picture of the word "Croatoan" emblazoned in blood is meant to imply that the virus (ZOMBIE VIRUS OMG) is similar to the virus in the episode Croatoan... does that mean the Sammy is immune?

...ZOMBIES!

Srs question tiems nao.

2009-09-21T04:34:32Z

No, really, seriously. I know this is a long shot but I wanted to toss the line out there anyway... is anyone interested in keeping me company at the ChicagoCon in November?

I don't think any of you are even going, and Sunday (otherwise known as Jared and Jensen Day) is completely sold out, but the prospect of going alone makes me sad face. :( <-- Like that.

Last year was amazing and I'm fucking psyched for this year, but it was also very lonely. Sounds crazy that I was lonely in a sea full of people who are interested in the exact same thing that I am, but them's the facts.

Although even this might be moot, because I'm 90% sure that my mother would freak the fuck out if I told her I wanted to stay in a hotel with some people I met on the internet!

Fri and Sat still have general admission tickets available... which means you'd get to see Misha and Jim... any takers? Bueller?

So, pit stop on Mount Doom?

2009-09-18T05:59:49Z

What an AMAZING episode!

SEPARATE? SEPARATE?! WHEN HAS THAT EVER WORKED OUT FOR THEM? EVER?!

~~I SWEAR TO GOD, IF CASTIEL LITERALLY REPLACES SAM I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU, ERIC KRIPKE.~~

I just had to get that out of my system. Because I really, really loved this episode! And I DO have positive thoughts on the end, promise. ;)

- THE MUSIC! I LOOOOOVE 'Long, Long Way From Home' - they've used the song before, and it reminds me of the boys so much. "I'm looking out for the two of us/ And I hope we'll be here when they're through with us"... me too, boys, me too. AND WHEN SPIRIT IN THE SKY STARTED PLAYING, FJDSKFDFKL! Reminded me of the excellent music cues from S1 & 2.

SHORT LIST OF THINGS THAT ALSO MADE ME FLAIL EMBARRASSINGLY:

- Sam getting choked!
- Sam (attempting) to exorcise a demon WITH THE LATIN RITUAL! Instead of hand ipecac!
- Sawed-off shotguns full of rock salt!
- ELLEN AND JO!

BUT BUT BUT, MOST IMPORTANTLY, THE AMULET! Hahaha, oh god, it seriously went right over my head at first, when Castiel mentioned that he needed an amulet. Watching it again it seems terribly obvious which amulet he was referring to before he told them, but it took me by surprise and ALKJDKLKDASJDAFKA. <--- THOSE ARE WHAT MY THOUGHTS LOOK LIKE ON THIS SUBJECT. Dean's reluctance to hand it over, awww. "Don't lose it!" Now we know what it meaannns! Obviously Bobby did not know when he gave it to Sam to give to John all those years ago. All that time Dean didn't believe that God existed and hanging around his neck was the one object that could literally find him. (I'm willing to bet that Kripke did not, in fact, have a plan for the amulet until at least last season when he introduced the angels, but LALALALALA I don't carrrre. ♥)

Okay. I'm calm now.

- Bobby. :(((((( MAYBE GOD WILL HEAL HIM.

- Totally called it on the God thing. I think we all did.

- How cool were those x-rays?

- Castiel, I really do love you. Using a cell phone! Flat bread! He and Dean = low husky voice battle, y/y?

Oh, Cas. He really did give up everything for nothing, didn't he? Although I can't say that I'm entirely sympathetic - he was thinking about falling when Anna was around, after all. He made the choice to defy Zachariah and the other angels, not Dean. And after all, God thought it was a good idea to resurrect him, that has to count for something. Still that scene - great job, Misha. Castiel is learning emotion! And it's anger! ... yay?

- RUFUS! I didn't expect to see him again! I hope we see more. He really reminded me of that guy from 'Croatoan' - but then again, there was a lot about this episode that reminded me of
'Croatoan'. Except this is sort of the heavenly host version of the demon that started the virus in that one, isn't it? Interesting that they were both fascinated by the way humans turn on each other so easily.

- Lol @ the Father: "The apocalypse?"

- So, so freaking happy to see Ellen and Jo. They were hunting! Now we know what was keeping the country safe while Sam and Dean were off being preoccupied by the apocalypse - Team Harvelle, kicking ass and taking names. Hopefully I won't have to hear everyone bitching about Jo, since she was pretty quiet and only said "hello" to Dean. I really want to see more of them! I hope they don't drop off the radar again after this. Ellen did make Dean promise to call!

- I absolutely loved the interpretation of the red horse - shiny red Mustang! When Dean whistled at it in the beginning, I was like, "No, Dean! You can't cheat on the Impala!"

- As painful as the boys' relationship is, I really like how the show is handling it. It's perfectly reasonable for Dean not to trust Sam, and for Sam to want to try and prove himself. I'm glad they didn't have that conversation last week only for the show to wave it off and save the issue for later. (The pacing of the show has always been brilliant, though, so I shouldn't have been surprised!) Just, ugh. Sam said he thinks they should separate and I just didn't want to hear it; it was like a bad dream. What makes the whole idea so hard to handle is the fact that it's the right thing to do. I don't know what Sam is planning on doing, but. It's so sad that a year ago, all he wanted was to be with his big brother. And now he has to leave again. I don't want to bring up the issue of whether or not Sam is the bad guy, whether he's completely at fault for what he did last season or for the apocalypse - it's clear now that he DOES feel responsible, he DOES know what he did wrong, he DOES regret it... but he's still the same Sammy, somewhere inside there.

It must have been so, so hard for Dean to watch his little brother walk away. Grab his bag out of the dusty Impala and leave. I'm hopeful that the separation will prove to be for the best.

Supernatural: the greatest fucking tragic love story ever told.

Meme; Day 5

2009-09-15T21:49:13Z

WE INTERRUPT THIS PROGRAM TO BRING YOU THIS CAP:

LOOK AT THAT FACE. HOW CAN YOU NOT BE INSTANTLY HAPPY WHEN YOU SEE THAT?!

Plz to be not using that image. Not that any of you would. It's not the greatest coloring ever but I still spent time on it!

Sharing is Caring! For one week, recommend/share:
Day one: a song
Day two: a picture
Day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day four: a site
Day five: a youtube clip
Day six : a quote
Day seven: whatever tickles your fancy

I usually only go on YT to listen to songs or watch fanvids, so I don't have any super interesting or funny new things to share! Sorry! I do have this vid, though, which is a compilation of SPN blooper reel footage across the seasons. I've seen the bloopers a thousand times, but this makes them all funny again, and doesn't fail to make me grin!

Meme; Day 3

2009-09-13T02:01:56Z

I am SO behind on this, whoops! Thursday was too full of SPN-related posts and yesterday... yesterday I was just busy, and then I spent all evening watching 9/11 documentaries. Which was not a good thing to do, because it gave me nightmares.

Okay then, continuing this:

Sharing is Caring! For one week, recommend/share:
Day one: a song
Day two: a picture
Day three: a book/ebook/fanfic
Day four: a site
Day five: a youtube clip
Day six : a quote
Day seven: whatever tickles your fancy

I couldn't choose between a book and a fanfic, so you get both! (I had an e-book too, but it turns out Scott Westerfeld was only offering Uglies for free until the 4th. Boo.)

A book:

Well, this is easy! *g* I recommend Havemercy, Jaida Jones and Danielle Bennett. (Jaida Jones of Shoebox Project fame, which is a fic that I cannot rec often enough, although it's not the one I'm recommending for this meme. I like cheating.) The little blurb on the inside jacket of Havemercy is extremely misleading, so I'll provide a summary and some excerpts. :)

Havemercy is told from the perspectives of four people living in the country of Volstov at the end of a hundred-years war with the neighboring Ke-Han. Volstov seems to be winning handily with the aid of their secret weapon - the dragons. They're huge, dangerous killing machines, made of metal and fueled by magic, flown by 14 of Volstov's ballsiest men. The Drgon Corps are rowdy, proud, sequestered in the bunker to the point where they have, erm, trouble functioning in society. Which is where our story begins - with Rook at the center of an international scandal ("The thing was, I didn't know she was married"). Much like Royston, in fact, although as a mere magician, Royston is exiled for his
'transgression'. He's sent to the country (god forbid) where he meets Hal, a young ~~babysitter~~ tutor who loves books and is the only thing that keeps Royston from Pits of Despair. Meanwhile, the Dragon Corps undergo their own punishment: Thom, a student from the 'Versity, subjects them to "sensitivity training" while they subject him to a blue face, beetles in his hair and all his clothes under the showers. Their two stories collide in a time of crisis that will determine the outcome of the war.

Really, though, it's about metal dragons, gay magicians, and explosions. What more could you want?

Excerpts:

ROYSTON

There was a bowl carved from black stone on the nightstand, in anticipation of the possibility that the wealthy patrons of Our Lady might need a place to put their cuff links or jewelry. I myself had adopted it as an ashtray, a purpose for which I thought it was particularly suited.

"You'd better get dressed", the Provost continued, removing a round, gold watch from his pocket. "There's a ruling to be had."

"So soon?" I didn't know myself whether the surprise in my voice was feigned or genuine. I decided on the third option, which was trousers, and got out of bed. "Dmitri, I must say the efficiency of this country in condemning a man is simply astounding."

...

I caught a glimpse of myself again in the mirror, hair dark and sleep-wild, half-dressed, white shirt voluminous and untucked, my nose stark and sharp and the new lines around my eyes and mouth. I'd lost my cufflinks under a mound of ash.

***

ROOK

"Just a spin," I said.

"Good," said Havemercy. "I'm getting rusty."

"Shit," I said, "You ain't."

"Aren't," Havemercy said. "You common little fucker."

There was a time when the powers that be were concerned I was going to be a bad influence on Havemercy, the pride of the entire dragon-fleet, but she wasn't some prissy little politician's wife, just power and musculature and sleeking grace, and she didn't fuck around with being proper even from the start. I taught her all the good curses and she'd melt any man tried to separate us, leastways until I could get my knife in between his ribs and stick him like a pig.

***

THOM

I cleared my throat loudly, to cover up for the rather obvious breach in etiquette I'd just made, and hoped this wouldn't make it back to the Chief Sargeant before I'd even had the chance to meet him. "Thomas," I said, "from the 'Versity. I believe I'm supposed to be meeting your... the rest of the corps in the atrium, only I can't seem to... that is..." I looked to Th'Esar, large and bronzed, as though this were all his fault. In a way it was - his and the airman Rook's, and I blamed them both equally.

"Oh, said Balfour, with a rush of gladness that threw me off. "I thought I was late! Merritt stole my alarm clock, see, to fish the bells out of it. Come along, then. It's this way."

...

Of the fourteen men lined up and sitting before me like princes, there was only one kind face to be seen, which the rest soon shamed out of its kindness. I didn't blame Balfour for falling in step with the others.

***

HAL

Eventually, the chatelain found me.

"Damn it, boy, what are you doing there?" he called up to me, arms folded, standing beneath my tree. I nearly fell off the branch and only managed to catch myself just in time. I wasn't keen on falling, not again, since the first time I had I'd done considerable damage to my wrist.

"Oh, well," I said. "Didn't want to be in the way." Then, I realized it was very awkward talking to the chatelain this way, and clambered down the trunk.

The chatelain looked at me with some bafflement - ...

"Well," he said. "Hal, you've a leaf in your hair."

So I had. I combed it out as quickly as I could with my fingers, book tucked under my arm and threatening to slip all the while. "Sorry," I said.

"At your age," said the chatelain, you've no business still reading in trees."

***

In short: READ IT! If you need more convincing, the first 3 chapters are HERE. (You have to sign up, but it's free and simple.)

You can buy it here @ Amazon for eight bucks. Lucky for you, the sequel has already been released! Yay.

Okay, now a fic. I could rec about 34384549023 fics, depending on what fandom/pairing/theme you want, so I'm going to stick with the most recent long fic that I have been enthralled by. It's Merlin fic!

From the author, derryere:

Title: Accidental Memory in the Case of Death
Pairing: Something about an, errrm, Arthur and a--what was it again, Mervin? Merlane? IDEK.
Rating: NC1746353754.
Warnings: Uhm. Uhm. Okay. Well, porn. That should be a warning. A lot of that. Bit of dubious con, dubious reincarnation, dubious--oh, just about everything. Also a bit (hah) of angst, character death (but, you know. IT'S REINCARNATION, so it sort of has to happen at some point), language, boys being all rough 'n tough, or maybe just generally stupid, and word count. Yes. You saw that right. Word count gets its own warning.
Word Count: 75.5K, BBS.
Summary: Tony O does not befriend losers. Tony O is not gay, not crazy, he is not particularly nice and he is most definitely not royalty. Destiny disagrees.

In short - and believe me, it is heavily ironic that I used that phrase, because this fic in anything but short at over 75K words - it's reincarnation fic.

After an incident involving, yes, a sword in a stone, Tony and Emory start remembering things that can't possibly have happened to them. And they remember each other - oh yes. Tony is confused as hell and Emory is in denial, and they can't seem to stay away from each other. It's just brilliant. It's interwoven with scenes from their past lives - Arthur and Merlin - which are intensely beautiful and heartbreaking. I read most of it in one sitting, which is just a testament to the amazingness that is derryere's writing, really.

Anthony's guts roil. Madness, he thinks. Total, anarchistic fucking madness, takes half a step forward, and the boy—what is his name? He's almost sure, almost aware of that first syllable, the second the—the boy jolts into attention, looking up as if distracted by the sound of someone calling. When he sees Anthony, though, his look—as faraway as it is—darkens a little, closes down and he quickly shifts his gaze elsewhere, getting up, walking away with his skateboard towering over from behind him, tucked as best as possible into his backpack.

"Wait!" Anthony follows, or tries to, but the boy ignores—keeps on without acknowledgement. Again he tries, calls out a, "Hey! Wait a second!", running a little to catch up. When he's close enough and there's no reaction still he thoughtlessly reaches out, grabs the boy by his elbow—forces him to a stop, forces him to turn around a little as he grits out, "I told you to wait a . . . "

He trails off.

The boy's arm tenses under his grip. The movement of muscles shifts against his palm, through the fabric of his plaid shirt, and Anthony's heart is sent racing. The inexplicable reaction of recognition has him fixing his jaw, clenching it, trying to hold it down—keep at bay the dozens of ideas, thoughts and pleas that push at his mind, clearly not his, never his, yet somehow there, like a noise that's been turned up.

The boy doesn't move. He stares at Anthony with a furious lack of understanding, a tenseness, a sense of suspense in those expressive, wide-set eyes. It is such an odd face, such a peculiar sharpness and build, but he feels no need to look at any particular part of it—the image so easily detailed in his mind already—thinking of a birthmark on the side of the boy's neck before his gaze flitters down to see it.

His breath leaves him as his hand slips down the boy's arm, holding on still but now to his wrist. Swallowing, he runs his thumb over the edge of the sleeve—then tugs under it, brushing over the warm skin, back and forth on the inside of his wrist.

"Merlin," he says, croakily, not sure what it means but feeling it all the way to the pit of his stomach.

The boy takes in a shaky breath. "Fuck," he whispers on the exhale, and his fingers curl down—briefly touching Anthony's before he snatches back his hand, fisting it at his side. He glances around quickly, as though wary of anyone having seen them, and on finding the quad as good as deserted save for distanced voices—a faraway visitor taking a picture of old corridor arches—turns back to Anthony, licking his lips as he says,

"Not here." And, "Come on."

While I'm here, and because I like cheating, I'm also gonna rec rageprufrock's Drastically Redefining Protocol, if you haven't already read it. It's more or less the epitome of Merlin AU. Merlin is just a medical student, Arthur is the Prince of Whales, and when they meet, all hell breaks loose. It's interspersed with other media, from pictures to fake ONTD! pages to newspaper articles, and if you haven't read it, then what the hell are you waiting for?! *g*

OKAY. Not that it's taken me an insane amount of time to write this entry, y'all better get your reading glasses on. :D

LUCIFER IS HERE

2009-09-11T06:11:40Z

Incoherent fly-by reaction post!

AFKDAS;FJKAS;;ADFFASFJKL

Okay, now that's out of my system.

THUNDERSTRUCK. THEY USED THUNDERSTRUCK! :DDDDD

So I was all excited and stuff and then they picked up RIGHT were it left off and Lucifer was rising and they were locked in and suddenly my heart was pounding and I missed my show and was grateful that it was back at the same time and DFJKASFSLF, SHOOOOOW!

I am so, so glad that I watched this alone and not with my family hovering around, because I said a lot of "fuck you!"s to Zachariah. FUCK YOU, ASSHAT. (DEAN SAID ASSHAT. HAHAHA ILU, DEAN!) Telling Dean that he let Sam kill Lilith? WHAT? Zachariah is the bastard who purposely kept him locked in a room while Sam drove off to Ilchester with Ruby!

Poor Dean, on another crashing plane. It was SO COOL, though, to see light burst from the church at that height! Nice one, Show! (I am constantly amazed at the things they pull off on such a small budget. BEST CREW EVER. &HEARTS;)

I never expected to absolutely HATE the angels the way I do. HATE HATE HATE. They are all such dickless, meatsuit-wearing douchebags. UGH. The thing about demons is that at least they're straighforward, you know? They want to fuck you up and they're going to let you know it (barring Ruby, of course), but the angels are manipulative.

"LEARNED THAT FROM MY FRIEND CAS, YOU SON OF A BITCH." :DDDD HOW BADASS WAS THAT?!

Ugh, I knew that Bobby would never say something like that to Sam. I kind of teared up about it anyway. What? Sam had his kicked-puppy face on! How can you NOT react when he looks like a five year old who just got scolded for breaking a toy?

I'm so glad he's alive, though! Oh my goodness, I nearly choked when he stabbed himself. When he was brandishing the knife at Dean I was muttering "It worked with John, it worked with John...", hoping that Dean would start begging. I LOVE Bobby for fighting back. ♥ I hope to God that he gets to walk again.

Meg. Somebody really oughta kill that bitch.

Oh, Kripke is SUCH a troll. You KNOW that he read a bunch of Wincest to prepare for that scene with the fangirl. I think the self-reflexive crazy fan stuff is funny, but the joke's run it's course now, buddy. Time to let it go. (I'm a little sad that the psycho fangirl's name was Becky, but if it means that I get to hear those boys say my name over and over, then I have no objections *g*)

Ummm, okay, MICHAEL. I really hope he shows up eventually and that he's a good guy, because I always liked Michael. (He and Gabriel = most badass archangels, y/y?)

But. Dean, a vessel? THANK GOD HE SAID NO. (No pun intended, there, heh.) I couldn't BELIEVE what Zachariah was doing to them. DAMN ANGELS, ARGH. I was a little bit... disappointed? that Dean was willing to let Bobby and/or Sam die, though. I mean, he kept saying no and it was awesome, but wow. Sam had no lungs, guys! And at one point he's just lying there on the floor with broken legs and no air and I'm thinkging, 'Ummmm, Sam's dead Maybe somebody should do something about that...?

AND THEN CASTIEL SHOWED UP! I was literally sing-songing "Castielllll, killin' angels with his angel-killin' kniiiife" HAHA I AM SUCH A NERD.

OR WAS IT CASTIEL AT ALL?!?!
Theories I've heard so far: that he's not Castiel anymore, he's Michael or one of the other archangels; that he's GOD (!!!!!! How crazy is it that we can look at a character and think,
'Hmmmm, could he be God?); or (and this is the one I'm betting on), he's been promoted. Either on the same level as Zachariah, or he's an archangel now. Which means he's seen God, because didn't Anna say that only the four archangels have seen Him? I'm also willing to bet that Zachariah is directly betraying God - because he believes that God is either no longer in the picture or that he's never existed at all - and so Castiel's actions at the end of last season were impressive enough to get him promoted.

So, if Castiel effectively hid the boys from the angels, how is he going to find them in order to save the day if need be in the future? Does his mean no more randomly showing up in Dean's dreams?

OH, DON'T LET ME FORGET LUCIFER. Usually gore on the show doesn't even make me flinch, but I was REALLY uncomfortable when that guy woke up and there was ALL THAT BLOOD in his bead, ughhhh. Lucifer = EVIL, no doubt about it. And he says - OMG, YOU GUYS, HE SAYS "I'M NOT LYING". HAHAHAHAHA WHAT. HE'S THE DEVIL. HE'S LYING TO YOU RIGHT NOW! I liked the whole sympathy for the devil card, because isn't that how Lucifer works? In religion and stuff, I mean. He uses your logic against you and tempts you into doing evil by making it seem like the right idea. And this tactic is CLASSIC: 'If God cared, why would he have let _____ happen?' GOOD JOB, SHOW.

The last scene. Now, I liked it - great acting as usual, great writing - so I really hate to say it, but I thought we were done with ending episodes on one of Dean's emotional outpourings. I REALLY HATE TO SAY IT, because it was a necessary scene and I'm glad that he said what he did, but come on, Kripke.

Forgetting all of that, though - YES. I wanted to hug Sammy, but I'm glad they didn't try to just sweep it under the rug, you know? There's no way Dean can just forgive Sam like that. Right before Dean's monologue, he said, "... we don't stand a snowball's chance in Hell, and you know that. I mean, you of all people know that." I don't know about you, but I read that as a little but of understanding on Dean's part. He admitted that they don't really stand a chance against the likes of Heaven and Hell, because they're not powerful enough to make any big choices or make any last stands. It was almost like he was conceding that Sam didn't really have a chance of fighting his so-called destiny, not with those two huge forces both working towards Sam's success. At the same time, Dean didn't jump to defend him either, not when either demon!Bobby or Zachariah accused Sam of being at fault for the apocalypse.

Basically what I got from the end of this episode was that it's not okay, it's not going to be the same, but they're going to keep moving forward anyway. I hope this means there's going to be a lot of the brothers getting close again this season, like they were doing in S1 & 2. ♥

Okay now DON'T READ PAST THIS LINE if you haven't/don't want to see the promo for next week!

FJDKSAFDS;AFJ WAS THAT ELLEN AND JO?!?! YES YES YES DO WANT! ELLEN! JO! Please don't let Jo die!...

JO! :DDDDDDD

In short: WELCOME BACK, SHOW!

twicetheheart31 @ 2009-09-10T14:33:00

2009-09-10T20:39:44Z

HAPPY SUPERDAY!

This might be (and hopefully will be) that LAST Supernatural premiere day EVER. EVER. I am completely, 100% percent spoiler-free for this, I don't even know the title of the episode. WHO ELSE IS EXCITED?!

I won't get to see it until I get home from work, and I have a short paper to write as well, so it's gonna be a LONG day. Last year the season premiere was preempted in Chicago, and I went riding instead. That was a good day. That was an excellent day. On Supernatural Thursdays, nothing can go wrong.

OOPS HOW DID THAT GET IN THERE. Timothy sums up my feelings about today pretty nicely.

Party hard, bbs!

...Not really sure where this came from, sorry.

2009-09-06T05:30:06Z

Can someone please explain all the Sam hate to me? I mean, really, I honestly don't get it, I cannot wrap my brain around hating Sammy. I know that a lot of the fandom is separated into Sam!girls and Dean!girls, and I don't judge you one way or the other - unless you hate Sam. (And vice versa, I know there's Dean bashing that goes on too.)I don't understand how anyone can enjoy the show if they only care about Dean and want Sam out of the picture. Does it come down to Jensen being pretty and Jared (in some people's opinion) not measuring up? Is that it? Because anyone who only watches the show for Jensen needs to get the fuck out.

This is brought on because I was reading a friending meme and someone responded that she only likes Sam when he has bangs. And actually, I was a little pissed that the question, "So, do you like Sam?" had to be one there. (No, there wasn't a corresponding "Do you like Dean?" question.)

And then someone else had Castiel as their favorite character. It's fine if you like him, I just don't see how anyone can watch three full seasons of getting to know and love Sam and Dean and then decide that Castiel is their favorite, having been in only a handful of scenes in a handful of episodes, most of the time showing NO EMOTION or interest in anything at all. I like Castiel, I'm glad he's sticking around, but unless we see more of the fallen angel bits - "On the Head of A Pin" style - then I'm going to continue to be completely ambivalent about him. (And no, Jimmy doesn't count. You were emotionally invested in Jimmy because he showed emotion. He cared about things. Jimmy does not equal Castiel.)

I mention this because it could be, and it seems most likely, that most people favor Castiel because of Misha. And don't get me wrong, I fucking love Misha Collins and I'm glad that he's part of the show. It's just the same issue with fans getting actors and characters mixed up.

UGH. I'm this close to pulling out of all my SPN communities because I'm so sick of the character bashing that goes on in this fandom. The Ruby bashing annoyed me, but not half as much as the fact that people now assume that a fan DOES NOT like Sam unless told otherwise. I feel like being Bi!Bro was the norm up until Season 3, and it makes me so sad that people think Sam is expendable. That people are convinced that they're not supposed to like Sam after Season 4. If they had bothered to understand the depth of the sibling relationship that the show is centered around in the first place, then it would be clear that Sam's little jaunt over to the dark side is something that hurts both Dean AND Sam, not just Dean alone.

This is not The Dean Show, or The Jensen Show, or the Dean/Castiel Show. (Or the Sam Show, or the Jared Show, or the Wincest Show - RTD can fuck off.)

This is the Sam'n'Dean Show. That's it. End of story. No arguments - you wouldn't have a leg to stand on.

End rant.

Like High School Musical, except gay. And, er, good.

2009-09-04T21:23:11Z

Augh. Given the runaround by the university and being raped of my money for this tiny book for one of my classes. That's all I'm going to say about today. Although, holding class outside in the grass was quite nice.

Anyway, beggar_always introduced me to this film and I LOVE IT and you all should WATCH IT:

If anyone is interested in seeing it, let me know and I'll get you a link. :)

Actually, just let me know if you're interested in gay rugby players singing, dancing, and making out with each other. I KNOW YOU'RE INTERESTED, don't try to deny it!

RAGE, defender of Gayopolis!

2009-08-24T23:17:09Z

I almost got in a fight at work today! Luckily, I am level headed and I walked away before I got too angry. And by "walked away", I mean I refused to serve the customer and went back to count out my deposit instead.

So this guy came in, right? And he was hot. So, so hot, with this adorable curly hair and gorgeous smile, niiice body and he was only about 5'6" TOPS, so you can bet that I had my eye on him. Then his friends showed up to meet him. His very flamboyant friends. Of course, the cute guy could have just been straight with gay friends, but his jeans were just a little too tight and his shirt was just a little too small and no, I'm pretty sure he was gay.

So anyway the guys stood around talking while we made their drinks, and then went to sit at one of the tables on the patio outside. As soon as they left the building, one of our regulars came up to me and said, "If I were you, I wouldn't have served them."

What? WHAT? I played dumb and asked Why, what's wrong with them? He said something like, "that's not natural, I would have just backhanded them. If my boy grows up that way, I'll disown him."

WHAT THE FUCK. So I got pretty defensive, and then my co-worker joined the conversation to back me up. I stepped back a little when he brought religion into it - yeah, he's one of those. Straight, white male conservative Christian. He's the brother of one of our employees, pretty young, wife and a few young kids, and I used to actually like him, but my respect for him went down with every word out of his mouth. He started talking about how there are clear guidelines for this sort of thing in the Bible, and that it's simple: 'people like them' are going to Hell. They chose that way of life and God doesn't like it.

My coworker jumped in real quick with, "They didn't choose anything!" but this guy was just shaking his head at us. His argument style was to just talk over us, he never listened. He kept stiking his face right into mine with this smug expression, like he was winning the fight, and that's when I almost hauled off and punched him. I am not a violent person, but I had to fist my hand around my apron to stop myself. He wanted to order but I shook my head and told him I had to leave, took my till to the back.

He asked me if I believed in the Bible. I told him they were just stories, and he came back with some stupid argument about how if I followed that logic, World War II is just a story, and how God has never changed the Bible, only men. EXACTLY. I told him that: "Exactly, men have changed the Bible to fit whatever they want to believe, including the notion that homosexuality is an abomination." He didn't listen, just talked right over me.

It's simple. Yeah, I believe in God, but not his. I absolutely refuse to believe in a God that condemns love in any form. Ugh. UGH.

I'm sorry this rant is so close on the heels of my last rant about homophobia, but it just happened an hour ago and I'm still pretty angry. I knew people like him existed, but I'd never met and tried to argue with one face-to-face before now.

When he left, he asked (half-jokingly) if he could use the back door so that he wouldn't have to walk past the gay guys outside. What an asshole.

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